A testimony from His blessed daughter Jocelyn Tay (Singapore)

I am sure everyone has gone through a time (or times) when we feel totally disheartened by things happening around us, and start to worry and negative thoughts start to overwhelm us. These thoughts are usually accompanied by questions to God, "God, are You there? God, why aren't You helping?"

This was the exact situation i was going through weeks ago. And i felt so drained, and i reckon that i was carrying too many burdens and was not walking in the right strength at all. I felt so helpless, because i couldnt see God working, i couldnt see that i was getting better when i prayed.

But God reminded me of His presence as i went for a seminar held by my church. that session was about healing and a pastor of my church released words to the congregation, and mostly consisted of people who may have past hurts or traumas. He told the people to come back next week for inner healing. In midst all these, he released one that was totally different from the rest- He asked for someone (or people) who had "800" on their identification number. these numbers were to appear consecutively. He wanted to see the people after the seminar was over.

My heart skipped a beat because i was one of them. I was scared and I asked God, " Do i have a problem You want to deal with? or am i sinning or doing something wrong that i am not aware of?" I was so distracted that i couldnt focus on the session.

During the break, I could not wait anymore (I was supposed to wait till the end of the session). I went up to pastor, wanting to find out what was wrong with me. To my surprise, he told me to not worry and it is not something bad and it is a special word God has for me! He did not tell me yet because he wanted to be sure of it. i was so relieved yet anxious to know what God wants to tell me.

Finally at the end of the session, pastor prayed for me and gave me a word from Psalm 17:8, "Keep me as the apple of your eye, hide me under the shadows of your wings" He told me that he sense God wanting to tell me that i was singled out in the whole auditorium because i was special, because i am the apple of God's eye! He told me his vision that he sees me sitting on God's lap and God is holding me in His arms and cuddling and hugging me! I felt so comforted by all these words, knowing that despite all that was happening in the past week, God is with me.

He added that because i am the special one in God's eye, many good things will pour forth from me. It could be salvation or other good things and whatever difficulties i may face, i should not give up because i am special. He also told me to carve out time for God, and do not live of the world, and focus on dwelling God's presence.

There was another vision of which i was kneeling at my bedside praying, and my pastor told me that when God sees this, He is pleased!

I thank God that He spoke to me through my pastor, reminding me of His love for me, reminding me that He has not left my side. And though we may face trials and obstacles in our lives, God will definitely bring us through it! And He is more than happy to help us carry our burdens and hear us whine...

Do not let present moment difficulties overshadow the reality of God's promise!